Learning to love myself.

Learning to love myself where I'm at.

Has been… interesting.

Since I had my awakening in 2018.

I've been so committed to my personal growth,

Because I WANT more.

Especially now

Knowing what's available

What I am supposedly capable of.

The universe, source

The POWER that creates WORLDS

is inside of me.

Knowing this,

HOW CAN I NOT BE ADAMANT ABOUT LEARNING EVERYTHING I CAN

SO I CAN CONSCIOUSLY

PURPOSELY

ACCESS IT.

I have SEEN it change people's lives.

I have SEEN it HEAL

I have SEEN it make people money

And yet

Every time I get close

Every time I get an inkling of it coming

I either get so excited its here that I focus on it then push it away

Or

I jump ship.

I abandon doing all the things that got me there in the first place.

I start spiraling thinking that maybe its just not meant for me.

Recently I've been catching myself.

Not allowing the negative thoughts to run the show.

But now,

I want to dive deeper into the work.

I want to learn more, grow more, be more.

So when do I learn to accept myself.

Right here right now

And say…

I can still manifest right now.

Not completely healed.

Not knowing everything.

Just all of me, showing up for myself, all the time.

That's the journey I am on right now.

Learning that I am ok as I am.

I WANT to learn and grow to become the best version of me.

But that doesn't mean

This me, right now IS

BAD

WRONG

NOT GOOD ENOUGH

It just means that I strive to be better than I was the day before.

I'm learning I am not something broken that needs to be fixed.

I am a powerful being that's just waiting to remember, to reawaken.

I am learning to love and accept myself where I'm at.

And it's an interesting process.